Posted at Monday, October 27, 2008
i SweAr i'M sO gOinG tO ChaNge tHe BoW LimBs...
40lbs iS waY tO hiGh FoR mE...
i dO EnjOy thE feeLinG oF thE pRefOrmaNCe oF tHe limBs... bUt iT's depResSinG mE aT thE saMe tiMe...
i caN FoRgEt aBt TrYiNg tO AsK fOr aNy heLps FrM aNy oF thE seNiOrs...
BecOs nO oNe wiLL heLp AutOmatiCallY...
toDaY...
i TeACh
aLonE...
i ShOOt
aLonE...
eVerYthiNg baCk tO HoW it'S uSed tO bE...
USED TO BE...ThErEfOre
i ShoUld bE gEt uSe tO iT lE riGht???
i ShouLd stOp aSkinG mYseLf qNs liKe "WHY NONE oF tHe SeNioRs wiLL VolUnteeR thEmseLve anD teaCh tHoSe yR 1??"
BuT
WHY CAN"T I sToP FeeLinG diSaPPoinTmeNt tHeN???
ALL thEsE whiLe... i'M a foOl!!!
ForCinG & fOrciNg thEm tO TeaCh...
HoPinG & hOpinG thAt thEy wiLL TeaCh...
buT i wAs WroNg...
WRONG!!!
WRONG!!
i GiVe Up...
fuLLy diSaPPoinTeD...
FoRgeT iT...
i'M noT goD... i"m juSt a HUmAn...
i hAtE thE feElinG oF "bAo ka LiaO"
nO oNe wiLL eVer uNdeRstaNd...